Just like that..

Since the day I heard of the idea, I was totally negative about it. Why should I do it? For what reason? I dont really care whether it is done or not.

But...

I was forced. Forced so much till I have no say in anything. I wanted to keep it simple if Im forced, but it was made sophisticated. I did not have any chance to discuss, I did not have any chance to think what would be good. Instead, I was presented a schedule.

The experience? I was tricked, lied, let down, disappointed. I dont really understand why should I do such a deed to my surroundings. Its not as if it is the end of the world. Im still gonna fight for my life.

Why?

I just dont know about it. Promises are made but are not fulfilled. I respect those who are true. But, this so happen to make me see things in a new way. How could I be so dumb...? Yet, is it so hard? So hard to inform? So hard to fulfill a promise?

Gratitude has not come. But guess I have to leave it. Im starting another life, another set of experiences! Just that things like this just makes me so damn annoyed.

Fuck it.

Conversations Part. II

I forgot to answer my own question.



What drives us to talk? There are many reasons, but the most common reason would be the need to communicate. But sometimes, we just cant communicate with another person. For an example, you are in a new environment with new people. You want to communicate with them but you just cant.



The obvious reason is shyness. You wouldn't know how the person would react. What if I said this? Would he/she mind? Or sometimes you just go blank. You just cant think what to say even though you want to start a conversation.



Conversation is sometimes an art, you need feedback from the person. The continuation of the conversation must depend on the person's reply. But meeting someone new and talking to them is indeed tiring and requires energy. You are constantly finding new topics to talk to so that interest would be found and topics will be flaring out.



BUT!



In the wonders of the virtual world, ITS DIFFERENT! People are far less shy, people are extremely friendly! People wouldn't give a damn about the topics and just simply blurt out. Mostly its down to eye contact. In the virtual world, we see words. Words may mean something but conversing eye to eye brings out the person. Its weird that when you are in the virtual world, everyone is your friend. But when you meet face-to-face even though you've talked to the person online in ages, you still feel shy and like as if it is the first time meeting.



I guess its down to the confidence people have in themselves. There are so many uncertainties when you meet someone new. You are afraid that your image will be tarnished. You are so worried about talking well. But, to be well and friendly, you must not be bothered about he uncertainties.



Guess maybe we all should converse digitally even though we meet in real life..




Cool huh? Everyone would be so damn friendly.



*thx to the actors in the picture... I appreciated it! :)*

Conversations

What drives us to talk whenever we meet someone? Could we really talk anything under the sun whenever we meet someone?

I've always been asking myself this questions. The really easy people to talk to is your friends. But what do you actually talk? Its instantaneous you will come out with a topic. But is it really that diverse?

Think about it. Take for an example, a friend of mine. Whenever I meet friend A, our main topic would be about girls and facts of life. Small talks do happen which is mostly consist of the past where we spent our times together with other friends. Then moving on to friend B, our main topic is about cars and some information about how do cars perform. Other smaller topic would be our past. Then I have friend C, our main topic is about what is going on around KK; who is running this company, what is he/she doing, etc... then the small topics are mostly our past and our lifes.

Its really funny when you really sit down and think. Such simple topics, but we drag it on forever and ever. In the end, we still dont mind and start talking about it.

Exciting....

White superiority?

I don't know if you have noticed. People here treat Europeans better than their own kind.

Why?

I really dont understand! For some it is as if they met with god. For some they adore their culture so much until they forget who they are.

For an example...

Try going into a restaurent, 9 out of 10 restaurent I can safely say that they get better service compared to you. Why is that? Some say cause they hold more money. I have the same spending power as they do, why am I not treated the same way as they do?

you can complain that they treat you better. Pfft... excuse me... if you treat your own skin colour good, you will be treated the same way!

Its different if you are in their country. Ofcourse there are some who are nice but they wont be stupid enough to go all out and start praising Asians like us Asians praise the Europeans.

Then they are those who forgets their own colour. Its like the people who are their own colours are demons and the whites are angels. They look down so hard on their own kind but yet sing praises to the whites. Now why is that? What superiority that they have compared to us?

Both are humans, both can think, both can talk, just that both live in a different culture. What makes you think white culture is far more superior than our own?

Anyways...

Some updates...

Just came back from my holidays(again)!

I found this restaurent which is quite amusing..

hahaha... of all the names.. great for celebrating that festival..

and... something nice..

woo hoo... but the ferrari was nice too lah.. just tat I didont take a pic of it.. hahaha..

I saw something...

know what did I saw...........??????

Arfan's fears........ there were passionately touching and seducing each other. I know I shouldnt be snoobing around but for Arfan, it is too hard to resist!!!

Besides that,



A CAT DOING ITS BUSINESS ON MY LAWN... damn.. should've taken a whole video of it. Yes, I know, Im a privacy intruder. Dont sue me cause I dont have the money to satisfy your hunger for justice.

People and accidents

Car Accidents do happen and I admit its something to see.

Why?

It's rare! You dont go out and see car accidents every minute of your life. But when it happens, it is a sight to behold(so to speak).

Its inevitable that people will slow to see what is going on. I have no objections about slowing down. But there are some people in the world who is smart enough to slow until 20km/h on a freaking highway just to see a CAR THAT HAS BEEN DENTED.

If there are bodies lying on the road with blood all over the place, the car is broken into two and it involves an exotic like a an Aston or Ferrari or Lamborghini or Pagani or what have you all mashed up beyond recognition, then you have a reason to slow down.

for an example :D :D!

BUT... NOT TILL 20KM/H ON THE BLOODY HIGHWAY!!!

Happened to me in KL where there was this car accidentally kissed the bumper of the car infront. Bumper dented, the hood dented. From afar you can see its a minor crash. Its inevitable that a crash like this will cause a traffic jam. Yes, its no harm slowing down to 60km/h or 50km/h. But the car infront of me slowed down to a snail pace of 20km/h. Mind you, infront of him was a clear traffic. All the cars sped up already. Ignorant fool!

I had my fun horning... :)

I thought Sabah would be different. But its the same. I just dont understand.

put this aside, I found interesting things in KL.

Hahahahahaha! It was soo intriguing!

Later that night, I found this. HAHAHA!

Back from 10 days of fun

Was out holidaying!

now Im back!

Scared yet?

no?

its okayyyy...

didont expect you to be scared...

;)