Just like that..

Since the day I heard of the idea, I was totally negative about it. Why should I do it? For what reason? I dont really care whether it is done or not.

But...

I was forced. Forced so much till I have no say in anything. I wanted to keep it simple if Im forced, but it was made sophisticated. I did not have any chance to discuss, I did not have any chance to think what would be good. Instead, I was presented a schedule.

The experience? I was tricked, lied, let down, disappointed. I dont really understand why should I do such a deed to my surroundings. Its not as if it is the end of the world. Im still gonna fight for my life.

Why?

I just dont know about it. Promises are made but are not fulfilled. I respect those who are true. But, this so happen to make me see things in a new way. How could I be so dumb...? Yet, is it so hard? So hard to inform? So hard to fulfill a promise?

Gratitude has not come. But guess I have to leave it. Im starting another life, another set of experiences! Just that things like this just makes me so damn annoyed.

Fuck it.